Tuesday, October 7, 2008

We are at a loss for what to think...

I had hoped the next time I posted we would have received some very good news but as usual we have not. Instead again as usual when we get a tiny bit of good news it is always followed by a heaping pile of bad news. The information we received recently is no exception. We found out late last week that our case was kicked out of PGN on May 27. Yes, you did read that right, MAY 27!!! Our attorney never bothered to tell us this bit of information nor did PGN for some reason. Every time I called I was told we were on the second reviewers desk. When I called last week I was told that our case was out to be fixed and that it has been out since May. A lady at PGN looked into the case more and emailed me with the information that our case was kicked out due to a DNA issue. After having someone find out more details for us we found out that our birthmother interview never actually took place and that PGN requested the birthmother repeat the first DNA test because evidently there was an issue as to whether or not she was the correct birthmother. We are at a loss because the information we have from the lab from the first DNA shows that she is 99.99 something of a match. How much closer does she have to be?
Wayne and I now belive that there is no way Madison will be home for Christmas and are even wondering if she will ever come home. We also don't know if our case is still considered to be "Grandfathered" in under the old laws since our birthmother interview did not take place before the deadline. If it is not then we do not know what will happen and neither does our agency.
We need your prayers now more than ever to help us through this tough time and to try to stay focused on our faith and trusting in God that his will is done. I am personally at a loss as to what to think and feel anymore. I don't think that I can handle this emotional roller coaster any more and need some type of information that lets me know if she will ever come home or not.


With some good news....
Jacob is doing wonderful and we are more in love with him everyday. We are enjoying being his parents and can't imagine life with out him. He is truly a blessing in our lives.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

God ONLY gives us what he knows we can handle...Your faith WILL bring Madison home....Stay strong and hold on because life is a roller coaster ride and we decide how to enjoy it.

Anonymous said...

Please remember that there are a lot of people praying for your during this time and that GOD is in control. We don't undertand why things happen the way they do, but GOD knows and will provide. Please continue leaning on the Lord and remember HE is right there beside you. Love & Prayers

Anonymous said...

Upon reading this, every fiber in my being says to run from this situation as quickly and as far as you can. But, then my heart kicks in. My current bible study emphasizes the fact that God can and will do anything if we truly believe in him and ask for it. I've said it before..........keep the faith! God will test our faith. There are so many examples of that in the bible. Some people waited for many years before they received what they prayed for. God answers prayer on His own timeline. Also, we must remember that there are possibly others praying that they will receive this child or another in the same situation. God has sent them Jacob to love and care for, until such time as the situation with Madison is resolved. There may be so many things at work affecting so many lives. Until then, keep the faith and enjoy the blessings you have. Anything worth having is certainly worth waiting for...........especially a precious child.

Donald and Janey Rabon